Kelly Haworth

Author of Queer Speculative Romance

Different kind of Lessons.

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Some of you may have noticed I’ve been a little quiet. I had a lot happen all at once in April that demanded my immediate attention for weeks. They are still demanding my attention. Not the kind of lessons I’m used to, these life lessons.

A test of will.

My husband broke his ankle 5 weeks ago. From the moment he hit the ground and looked up at me and said, “this is bad” I became a single mom of two “kids.” I’ve had to do all the cooking, cleaning, working full time, and caring of our now-one-year-old son. (Luckily I have had family and friends to help me out, thank you all.) It has been exhausting. It has been stressful. And that’s not all that has been going on. We are moving in the coming weeks. And last week I had an accreditation exam for my work that I had been studying obsessively for the past several weeks. At least I passed.

A test of patience.

Studying for the exam may be over, but everything else is still weighing on my shoulders and slowing me down. I’m so tired after Nate goes to bed that I can only do some dishes before crashing. And he’s still not sleeping through the night, so there’s no waking up early to write either. But recently, Brian’s been able to stand long enough to help out with some chores. Slowly, I can see things returning to some sort of normal. Just in time for us to move.

A test of distance.

For the first time in a decade, I’m moving to a different city. I’m excited for a new chapter of my life, of course. But I am scared, and hoping we made the right decision. A lot of it is going to be fun—we are picking out carpets and paints this weekend—and it’s going to be a lot of work packing everything up and getting out of here. I just won’t be able to do much until we are settled in.

Passing these tests.

It was part of my life journey to learn these lessons and take these tests, and I hope they will pay off.  A few more weeks and Brian will be walking again. A few more and we’ll be in our new place. And then I will be able to get back to the pursuit I love so dearly. Writing. Storytelling. Moving people. I mean, come on, I finished my schooling when I graduated college, you know?

Take care, all. You’ll see more of me soon, I promise.

One Comment

  1. You have a good attitude. But it’s worth noting that, other than the broken ankle, all of the stressors you mention are positive ones. Buying a house is scary but usually seen as a major milestone, passing the exam means career advancement, and you are raising a child: the living embodiment of the future. All of these mean your life is progressing forward. Hang onto that.

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